Life lesson...

Ok, so I haven't updated my blog in 4 and a half months...^^" anyway...I'm going to rant about my ex boyfriend now...

[also notice that I abandoned my blog shortly after getting a boyfriend]

Today me and my boyfriend broke up........ ex*

07/05/10...4 months and 29 days ago (yeah almost lasted 5 months :S not long...fail...) he asked me to be his girlfriend. At the time I was positive that I'd never be in a relationship. Should have listened to myself huh...nope, I accepted...no idea why I accepted...I liked him? Yeah. 

The first month was awesome, probably one of the highlights of my life lol. I felt bubbly and happy all the time...Second month was good too but we started to get more serious and as we got more serious I guess more arguments came up :S ...the third and fourth months were like a roller-coaster...had highlights and low points...I guess he just got sick of my shit...lol yeah he dumped me... 

We were too different maybe...? 

I don't blame him...but he seems to blame me completely >.< ...takes two...both sides...both people...I think we both just wern't right for eachother...

I don't want to regret anything. I don't want to be bitter or hateful. I haven't cried suprisingly...more like forced myself not to...I'm an emotionally weak person...lots of breakdowns lol. I'm the type who looked at girls in movies and thought it was stupid how they let themselves get hurt by a guy...I thought I was strong enough to be able to handle a breakup...I guess I'm not...LOL... I've been pretty happy throughout the day...but every now and again I feel like breaking down lol...when something reminds me of him... *slaps herself*...

Everything we'd been through while we were together...even though he says he regretted all of it...I don't regret it...I want to take it as a life experience lol...and it was good while it lasted ^^ ...I wanna be mature about it I guess haha...

Oh weeelll~~~ I'm gonna try to be happy~ no regrets~ no hate~ no bitterness~ <3 he can think whatever he wants to XD 

My first breakup haha~

-time to let out all the tears I've been holding in XD ^^"""""""""" 

...I guess I'll miss some of the points of being in a relationship though...haha...

*siiigh* but I missed being single ^^"" it's good to back lol...

Peace out <3 -alisa-

- Just Out of Boredom -

Ok...so I've abandoned my blog for sure xD haven't written anything for 2 weeks :\ lazy...not bothered...*shrugs*

I'm bored :D (arn't I always bored? =.="")

I think I'm becoming girlier o.o""" WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME!?? DX I even requested that Penny slap me whenever I say anything girly or even mention him =.=" nya~ cheh!

I've realised I have a coffee addiction now :\ not good...I'm gonna go broke buying so much iced coffee >.<"""

I will never become a fangirl.
My recent song obsessions mostly seem to be Korean boybands...ew, they suck =.=...ah who am I kidding, they're awesome~ :D But I will never become a fangirl and whoever accuses me of being one can go die ^^
HYPOCRITES~!!!
You tell me tell me why~ You show me show me why~  :p

~ Note to self: EXERCISE SELF CONTROL =.=" ~

- O . M . F . G -

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGH!!!!!!!
WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA~~!!!!!

o.o"

So much for that... xD "Stay single all my life" <--- BULLSHIT
I must be insane LOL probably am~

AHAAAHAAHAAHAAHAHAAHAAHAHAAHHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAAH

ok, all done ^^

- Abandoned -

I'm probably gonna abandon my blog ^^"" haven't been blogging much.

Nothing comes to mind when I try to blog something. Waste of time? Yeeeah prettymuch LOL~
Boring too...bleh...maybe I'm just getting lazy...

I have heaps of crap to study for T^T everything's dumped onto week 3 and 4 Dx WAAAAAA~

Week 3
- Music listening test <--- I swear I failed that, I could barely get any notes down D:
- Geography essay assesment test thingo <--- :\ I need to study more...that's tomorrow...
- Music performance assesment <--- I'm looking forward to this but dreading it at the same time x___x"

Week 4- Maths Half yearly <--- WHY IS THE INTERMEDIATE ONE IN WEEK 4 BUT STANDARD AND ADVANCED IN WEEK 5 WAAAAA~~~~~~
- Science half yearly <--- MUST STUDY

So basicly...I'm screwed...oh joy =.=""

Well...Study > Blog
and I'm just too cool for my blog 8)

- My new list -

Ok...I have a new list...the Hit List is a joke the NEW list is called: People I genuinely want to see hurt/humiliated/etc. <--- Yeeeah...I sort of need a better name for it (any suggestions?) ^^""""...the Hit List is mostly for friends who've annoyed me so then I need to make more death threats to them and try to annoy the crap out of them more than I normally would C: ^^ the People I genuinely want to see hurt/humiliated/etc. is not so nice. It's for people I really do personally dislike/hate and really want to see them suffer *glares*
Also people that have made my life miserable ^^ theres a special plece for you there as well~

This list is dedicated to someone I met only a week ago. He pissed me off and crossed the line. Now I really want to punch him in the face and break his glasses. THAT would be satisfying. Or at least humiliate him in some way ^^ he's the first on my list but now that I've thought up the list...I'll add some people that I've always kept a grudge against~ there are currently 7 people on it, a majority from primary. 8) F#CK ALL OF YOU!

No I'm not going to name and list them because I'd rather not...got it all in my head :p
Why would I put it out there for the world to see anyway?? THAT would be stupid ^^


~ Note to self: I need to learn not to hold grudges ^^""" ~

- First Week of School -

I think I'm sick. My throat hurts >.<" blehh I think I can tase blood. That can't be good :S

Well one week of school down...9 more to go before the next holidays...=.=" yuck...
*sigh* This week has been..tiring..depressing...dead...wow I sound negative I need to be more optimistic.

Tuesday~Yay seeing friends I haven't seen  in 2 weeks :D Penny came back from China (Y) she got me one of DBSK's Japanese albums...o.o"" I feel like a fangirl now...so ashamed of myself. xD
Cross country...They could have at least given us a llittle bit of warning D: sore afterwards >.<"" legs hurt. Ran with Tina and Shana...finished at the same time (almost, with a second difference) 20:22 [Tina], 20:23 [Me], 20:24 [Shana]. Pretty ok-ish ^^ better than I expected...(maybe because we were the stupid ones who decided to sprint at the end :S) May salughtered everyone though ^^"" I don't even remember how many times she lapped us :S
Hmmm...I went on a rage...I don't know why. I didn't even have a reason to. How embarassing. :S sort of lame LOL. I'm happy to say that even though I made a complete idiot out off my self, I can sort of laugh it off now. I felt sick for half the day =.="" stomach ache...

Wednesday~Still sore from cross country :S I'm so damn unfit D:
Went hyper with Yani in Japanese (Y). Have a sub for English so it was a complete bludge~ Science experiment with balloons xD LOL Physics.
Reeeally tired >.<"" ugh...stupid school. So draining TT________TT bleeh~ Kept feeling like throwing up >.<""

Thursday~ROFL~~!! Theory that the Pans rule hell and will someday rule the World o.o" Ja-PAN, PANgea <--- which means taht they even ruled in pre-historic times o.o""" That was epic ^^ Lucifer's cookies that Wendy is so fond of xD
LOL in Geography :
Mr. Davison: Why do we want to stay friendy with the Chinese?
Someone: Because of the trading, it brings money in for Australia.
Mr. Davison: Good and also you wouldn't want to anger China because they're a large country in comparison to Australia
Yup ^^ China could definantly kick Australia's arse :p ASIANS FTW

I felt really depressed and drained....don't know why...probably something to do with...bleh...I don't even know what to believe anymore. So much internal conflict. I need to learn to relax and trust people. I've also realised that I have really bad trust issues. :S In VD...that conversation...bleh >.<"" it prettymuch reduced me to feeling like crap for the rest of the day...

Friday~Ugh, woke up and my throat hurt >.<""
LOL Christy bringing Daniel Pan's Jacket to school xD OBSESSIVE COMPULSIVE FOLDING DISSORDER. She wouldn't stop folding that jacket o.o""" then almost getting hit by a car because she was folding it AGAIN. Felt so heavy today...=.="" bleeeh~

Anyway..it's Saturday and I'm wasting my time writing this blog xD

I have a theory for why I was so pissed off/depressed/dead/etc. I think I was PMS-ing xD yeah ok I blame PMS now xD HAHAHHAHAHHA bout the right time too xD LOL too much info?? ^^""" HAHA I no longer give a shit :p PMS: a woman's excuse for acting like a complete bitch ^^  


Wow...I can't believe I bothered to write that much o.o"" meh, ranting about shit people don't care about anyway?? I think I've found my reason for a blog :D

~ Note to self: Stop being so open...it's creepy...especially where the whole world can see it...on the internet... ~

~ Note to self: Strepsils do jackshit. ~

~ Note to self: Stop wasting time writing an unnesacarily detailed blog about your life...no one really cares. ~

- Holidays are just incredibly boring - Part II -

And what have I done these holidays?? NOTHING!
Well...goodbye holidays, hello term 2 @___@

*sigh* I prettymuch wasted my holidays. I think I was on the comp 90% of the time...mostly doing nothing. ^^"

The only homework I've actually done is practising for my music performance assesment. I can finaly play the whole song ^^ Yay~ Blackbird by the Beatles. I was playing the guitar to the point my fingers actually started hurting (and as a guitarist I should have some sort of immunity to that ^^"") but I am happy that I've done at least something constructive during the holidays...

I still need to do my PDHPE assignment >.<"" at least it's due on thursday ^^""" otherwise I'd be screwed...I need to catch up on a whole chapters worth of maths HW too @__@"" shiiiit...I leave homework to last minute all the time and always regret it >.<" force of habbit maybe? ^^"""
*sigh* Holidays are supposed to be for a break...=.= WHY THE HELL DO WE HAVE HOME WORK~~!!!??

*sigh* GOODBYYEE HOLIDAYYYSS I'LL MISSS YOOUUUUUU~~!!!!!!

- Note to self - Must stop procrastinating @___@" -